Is it better to be a "lousy writer" who truly writes or a multiple personality disorder spammer who cares little about anyone but himself?

Yes. The OP is a lousy writer, and the readability of his texts is not so good and hard to understand. Add to that his overall negativity about life in China and a humourless person that the OP must be, then you get the components of a personality that cannot have many friends and calls everyone on herea "troll". -
It's weekend now and I will now go to the beach. watch the sunset, face the blowing wind around my head and have a drink! Cheers!