Right it must be someone elses fault that you are unable to fit in. Anyone that can is obviously bowing to their chinese overlords, there is no way that anyone can actually make it here.

i imagine it will be the same for you anywhere in the world, always someone elses fault that you are being held down. I really feel sorry for you that you will never find peace, maybe just maybe if you stopped blaming others for all your problems and looked at your part in it you might be a little less bitter and alot more productive.
Some food for though next time you do a runner.