and despite the harsh reality of being home and being on the verge of applying for food stamps I still appreciate that fact that I have not gone insane due to being around real friends and being in a more cultured environment. You are just trying to justify running away from

If things are that grim and as you are browned off with China, why don't you go and teach English in Europe. I have known three American Ft's in China who went to teach in Spain, and that's pretty cultured. In fact an American flew over and spent Christmas with me in my house in England last year. She now tells me she will going to the UK to teach; not English, but she could do so, just have to remember a few minor spelling differences. I shall arrange for her to have a key because I won't be there by then. You are up against it trying to get a job teaching English in America, as you are hardly short of English teachers there. No, you go to Europe..and Americans usually impress in UK ,so you might get a job. Think big, get galvanised, just do it.