You sound like that butterfly collector who was on these boards a while back called Linguisticus or something like that. I advise you to stop talking like this before you make an @$$ of yourself. Maybe in china you can get your rocks off by speaking in some mystical, enigmatic way but here on these boards we have a lot of native speakers and we find your attitude childish. Perhaps leaving china for a while will allow your own humanity to come back to you.